I have spent the entire day lying on the sofa feeling a little burnt out and not particularly well after a crazy couple of weeks. This has then led me to feel guilty about all the things I have yet to do but can’t quite muster the energy to start. I have also had a realisation that point 2 of my new years resolution has been totally blown out of the water!!
There are the company accounts, the little Oliver & S dress that I have yet to finish (it’s only been 2 years!!) It keeps looking at me with it’s scrummy yellow and grey cotton eyes, saying, finish me, finish me!
The last roman blind for a client, cleaning the front room after birthday sleepover for son number 1 (which also took 5 months to come around, don’t ask.).
The pencil cases for Africa (actually have a few people helping me out on this one, update post to follow),
Knitted top for headmistresses new baby (thankfully not due until July),
Scarf I promised to knit my daughter to go with the beanie, cute though huh!
Putting stuff to sell on Ebay, sort out my house, etc, etc
But if all of this stuff doesn’t get done today, or tomorrow for that matter, no one is going to die. This is my favourite saying from my lovely husband. When I am stressing about my usual overload he says ‘is anyone going to die if it does’t get done?’ to which I reply ‘well,no’ and then with his Yoda of London wisdom he says ‘then stop stressing’ And he is so right!
In 2009 I went on a missions trip to Rwanda. I was instantly struck by how content the people were. They had, by our standards, nothing. No fancy clothes, no iPads, no iPhones, no toys, no tv, just each other. They had to walk for 4 miles daily to get to school, most times with an empty stomach and they arrived with smiles and laughter just like the happiest of our kids. It made me feel slightly ridiculous for filling my life with unnecessary stress and determined to chill out and spend all of the time, which I would then clearly have on my hands, to spend with loved ones. A fail of epic proportions then ensued but I kept it up for a couple of weeks. It made me realise that we shouldn’t let life steal our time.
I am learning slowly (very,very slowly) but surely how to take less on and how to be more relaxed and today was a good reminder of that.
I would like to leave you with my favourite quote;
Everything will be alright in the end, if it’s not alright, it’s not the end………Anonymous